Maryam Hooleh

translated by Hayde Daragahi

absolute nothingness 

what infinity!
it's like when I close my eyelids!
you, who never fell down from the moon,
and the sky never found you,
however could you be smashed under my feet
to inform me of a fire behind the sky?
we were naïve
and not even our shadow
could not see us.
and infinity,
which was absolute nothingness,
had scared us.
they'd written a thousand tales about you
and I know your story by heart!
no one had ever seen you
let alone you having said anything!
you were my anxiety,
and had it now been for you
I wouldn't have died so well.
God flows in me,
And then I fall apart!
I accept you,
Even though my acceptance, along with me myself,
Is food for the worms,
And my soul is life,
And my soul is mortal,
Save me if you can!
If you were all the light there is,
Then light would play crazy in the sun,
And rest itself on earth.
From the day you become my existence
You laughed at my destruction.
I did not believe you
Until happening was struck by law!
I'm not stupid,
And I know your story by heart
You've heard my voice
But, in truth,
I have never called you!
My god is man
Who conquers his own infinity!
And o' happening
Continue to be law-bound!
God is the very same
Who lay down on a young bed of thorns.
And time set out in his stead
Like a dream.
The thorns sank deep in his skin
And reached the bone!
He'd encircled them so thoroughly
That they had no way of seeing him.
When the long spikes of thorn
Pass through his body
And manage at last to see him
They'll realize
That they've killed him with their history.
You!
With so many thorns,
So many people,
however can you still go on breathing?